Not just a fuck
It was Valentine’s day, I was alone and every channel on TV had romantic movie marathons. It kind of bummed me out because it was my first year being alone. This year was different because I was in a deep depression from being dumped by a man who had skinner legs than me. I was dating my landlord for about 9 months until he broke up with me. I wasn’t sad that the relationship was over but upset that he had rejected me when I was looking to end things. He just beat me to it. One of my good friends suggested that I should join this online dating site called sexsearch.com. She thought that all I needed was a good fuck and I’d be over my ex. I wasn’t one to ever really be in a serious relationship. I had sex with a lot of random men and at the end of the day all I had were my two cats to snuggle up to.
My friend had met a lot of great guys on the site so I figured I try some random sexual encounters to see if I could mend my feelings of rejection. I signed up and within minutes my inbox was being flooded with e-mails. I really enjoyed the attention I was getting from all these men. I really didn’t want to take the time to get to know any personals that well because I wasn’t looking for anything serious, this site is used to hook up and that’s all I was using it for.
I started talking to this one guy and we both realized that we lived just a few blocks away from each other. We both had the same intentions. I decided that the smart thing to do would be to meet in a public place just to make sure he looked like his pictures and if everything was good we’d head back to his place. We met at a coffee shop half way between our houses, talked for a bit than headed back to his place. We didn’t take the time to really get to know each other much because I was just looking to use him for his services. We ended up banging for three hours straight, and it was incredible. Our fuck buddy relationship than started to progress, we’d both start sleeping over at each others places and started going out and doing things. What I thought was just going to be a one-night stand had turned into an amazing relationship and all thanks to a little profile on a dating site.
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